If I hold my breath; thirty seconds, a minute, a minute and thirty seconds. I get the feeling of pure desperation but it's not unfamiliar to me. Survival instinct kicks in and I take a deep breath filling my lungs with air. The feeling of relief is amazing and for a few moments I stop taking it for granted. But I have to ask myself, Is the feeling of wanting something so desperately worth it in the end? Because I'm holding my breath for longer than I ever have before.