you left to university last week and even though you're closer to me now than you were all summer I feel farther from you than ever. I want to be across the street from you again. I'd trade anything to be able to meet you on the sidewalk at 3 am again, to share a smoke and hold you. Everything seemed so insignificant then.

I havnt written in this for so long but I plan on starting again. Some things going on in my life: I moved to Toronto and I am staying with my aunt and uncle, I'm still with my girlfriend and things are going really well, she's moving to guelph soon and we wont be able to see each other as much but I think things will be fine. I still have no job which is fucking rediculous but I'm going out to apply down the street in a few mins at the plaza. S'all for now.

Start a fire

This right now has been the best week of my life. The weather has been shitty but that hasnt stopped me from being in such a good mood all week. I think I'm getting a free tattoo that I'm so excited to get, I got a job interview at a sweet place completely out of the blue, Today (Thursday) I have a field trip in class so I dont have to sit around and want to shoot myself and I've somehow managed to get like sixty bones this week which is so much money for me. All in all solid week.

I love this

Our love is all that we ever had
Our love is all that we'll ever have
Boys and girls, guys and dolls
You were finding faith in bathroom stalls
and broken beds, spring fractured spines
Fall for the right kids at all the wrong times
And in a world of sluts, we keep this wet dream alive
Yeah, our drought is drying out
You go nowhere in a nowhere town and no one's listening to the sound
of breaking down and breaking out is just wishful thinking

We're taking walks around the hearts and homes we'll never own
You go nowhere in a nowhere town and no one's listening to the sound
of breaking down and breaking out is just wishful thinking
You go nowhere in a nowhere town
We're growing up by falling down
We love the songs because we live the songs
in condemned flats between the rights and wrongs

And all we know is that we'll never know
We love the hearts but the hearts love us even more
Desperate and true, thinking of you
Borrowed and blue, sinking with you

Keep loving, keep breathing, keep living

By: AN

I'm a little drunk so sorry future me if this is hard to read or something. I came here with so much on my mind to write about but as soon as I tried my mind went blank. I had a good night tonight and I had my palms read. It made me pretty happy because according to my palms Im going to turn out exactly how I want to. I dont usually believe this sort of thing but Im going to this time because, well, why not believe I'm going to turn out exactly how I hoped I would. Future me, my girlfreind rules I hope you didnt fuck it up you punk. But seriously I never would have dreamt things would have turned out this way but I'm so happy they did. Even though Im dreading september like my death resides within it. I think about it sometimes and it makes me so fucking upset but there is fuck all I can do about it. I went into this knowing it would happen so I can't complain too much about it. But I want too sometimes, It's not really fair.

Im sitting here in class bored as fuck with ten minutes on the clock. I'm getting picked up today, fuck yes. No bussing for me today. I'm off school until tuesday but even tuesday will be good because I think I might make some money. On friday I'm off to North York to visit my aunt for the night and coming back on saturday for easter dinner at my grandpa's. I havnt seen him in a while so I'm stoked. Five minutes left. It's so nice out right now I want to go skateboarding so fucking bad. I may have to go pick up my old board because I need the trucks and wheels off it. I shot my best friend with a bb gun last night and it was pretty jokes. four minutes .jase. I want a big ruck to drive around. bell.