There is something that's been on my mind for the past 54-ish days now that I've been trying to ignore but today I finally recognized it as a big issue. I'm getting attached to someone who come september I will never see again. It's not really fair and terrible that there is a date approaching in five months and a little bit where feelings go out the window and I have to move on, no matter what. There are two choices I can make here and one is to stop now, yeah it'd be shitty but easier in the long run right? The second is to say fuck it I'm young and my heart should be free so fuck approaching dates and have an awesome summer and just deal with the heart break in the fall. It's too late for rationality I've already made my choice. I'd rather you be beside me tonight and gone tomorrow then to never be with you at all.

Listening to: Lucero
Reading: The Beach
Watching: National Geographic On Demand