My father insists on trying to contact me it fucking sucks, after all this time shouldnt he have taken the hint that I dont want to have a relationship with him? It's not like it's never been said fuck, the last time I saw him we almost got into a fist fight in the middle of the street. He even told me that he never wants to talk to me again to which I replied with a smug "good". I just dont get it, maybe I straight up need to tell him again that I dont want to talk to him but I know thats just going to create a fight and why would I want that. Why would he want that? Does he honestly think I'm just going to say "Oh hell pops lets throw everything aside and be best buds again okay?" because if so he's in for a surprise. This whole thing is just a reminder of how controlling and manipulative he is it's like whenever he wants to contact me he expects me to want to talk to him and just be okay with everything. Ugh. And fuck to make matters worse my cousin on my step moms side so we are not even related is messaging me constantly telling me to talk to my dad because her grandfather my step grandfather if you will is dying. Yeah it's sad I've known him all my life but I have no place going to visit him. FUCK. My aunt isnt talking to me anymore for some fucked up reason, I have no clue what I did wrong there it's really sad I was closest to her than anyone in my family. Sorry? I miss you my uncle and my little cousin a lot. I visited my grandfather after not seeing him in years and it was really nice, I respect him a lot he worked hard his whole life and he's such a humble man I need to visit him again. My family life is fucked I hate it. I wish I had normal parents who were still together but that never happens anymore, there is no commitment marriage is disposible and my familt demonstrates that so well. There isnt a single couple in my whole family who is still married, I have six sets of grandparents for christs sake, SIX! I apologize if anyone actually read this.